Finding Passion Beyond Parenting
Hello my sweet community!
It’s been a while since I’ve written or posted here and want to do a quick check-in.
The truth is, I feel lost. I mean, when it comes to parenting and raising Wilder, I feel like I’m doing a rockstar job and am totally on track. Wilder is thriving and I have a hand in that. But that is literally all that I do, is parent. I feel lost when it comes to knowing who I am anymore or what I want to do in life. My dreams are big, but reaching them feels so hard right now and like I’m stuck in quick sand. My days are spent staying sober, parenting, and working just enough to continue to provide for the basic needs of my child.
As a person in early recovery, I’m trying to figure out how to navigate finding my own interests and passions alongside with balancing being a single parent. Some days it feels as isolating as active addiction did (but never as hard). Since losing my heart (and retired service) dog, life has felt especially lonely and even more so like I’m floundering out here. Jersey was more than just a pet, she was a companion that led me through a lot of my darkness. I don’t ever want Wilder to carry the weight of finding me out of that darkness, so I’ve been catapulted into a place of unexpected healing. A place that has led to craving connection and relationships, and more checking-in’s here. Some will be short check-in’s and some long, but always about simply showing up.
Sometimes we just need to feel a little lost together. And sometimes, all it takes is a little bit of connection to clear all of the darkness away.
In the mean time I’m manifesting another companion, but not in dog or human form. My heart knows what it needs next and my soul can feel that it’s close. Stay tuned to see who joins our flock next. And thank you for still being here everyone. Your support is felt even from afar.
Today I strive to create time for my own passions, along with parenting.
Danny (and Wilder)