Tearing During Childbirth
I want to take a moment to talk about a topic that I have yet to since giving birth, and that was tearing while giving birth.
Below are photos that I have never shown and include some pretty graphic images and blood, just as warning.
While giving birth to Wilder, I tore and ended up with a first-degree perineal laceration that was about 2 cm long x 1 1/2 cm deep. My midwife put in about five stitches. In addition, I also had symmetrical labial splits on both sides. Below you can see images of my midwife stitching me up.
I want talk about this not to infuse you with fear that if you have a home birth you will end up tearing and needing stitches, because that it not the case. I want to normalize how safe and prepared midwifes are for whatever may occur during a birth. I never once felt scared and although the actual stitching was a bit uncomfortable, it wasn’t nearly as painful as you would think. My body was still on an adrenaline high from meeting my baby and I could have lost an arm and it would have been ok. I was afraid of tearing before I gave birth and what I found, is that my fears made it a much bigger deal then it actually really was. I tore. My midwife stitched me up and it wasn’t traumatic. I wasn’t scared or feel unsafe once. I felt held and supported while being able to hold and support my newborn.
Our fears in life very well may pop up right in our paths, and when they do, they can teach us just how grounding faith can be. Walk through your fears, because it’s within mine that I’ve found the greatest joys in life.
Enjoy, my friends. 🙂